Life is all about YOU!!!!!
Feb 1, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1g03s6WSieY

it's Thursday can't tell that I'm a ya
know a little excited look at it I'm
ringless closed until that old fell we
said you were proud of me it's Thursday
can't tell that I'm a ya know a little
excited look at I'm ringless so
yesterday I don't know what I was doing
but I was looking at my fingers and I
just so happened to notice that because
remember I had a switch till I got fake
ring for my wedding ring because oh my
regular wedding ring is way too big it's
too heavy
so it just pulls my finger and it just
rolls off and so I retired out my my
wedding ring to my safe until I am more
at a size that I think my finger will
stay at and then I will get it sized
because my ring is one of those that's
like you should only size it once to
twice maybe in its lifetime because of
the way that my diamonds are set that it
like loosens them up and then I have a
band that goes with my wedding ring and
it's also too big so because of that I
just I was like you know what just
forget it I am NOT gonna try it but I
had a fake ring on and I notice that one
of the little diamonds fell out so I'm
like oh right we see where you're going
so I took it off and retired it to the
garbage can so Miss Amy has no ring on
and it's driving me nuts
I actually thought I've seen that they
have silicone rings really thought about
trying trying one and seen but
I don't know I just don't know um all
right so update on Miss chucklin s for a
Ramadan much better much better she is
wild child out there right now that is
why you hear all yeah sure they're
probably doing something I'm not
supposed to be doing um and so she is
doing much much much better this evening
she took a really good nap this
afternoon woke up in a really good mood
other than I'm hearing her cry right now
um but she did wake up in a really good
mood and for myself last night my
stomach was really torn up like it was
just killing me but I did end up take I
end up taking pepto-bismol and that did
help me a lot so I woke up this morning
and my stomach was feeling much better I
ended up eating for breakfast this
morning I had what did I have for
breakfast this morning
turkey sandwich yeah and then for dinner
tonight I had tuna sandwich so there you
go with my whole carb low carb bull
baloney but I needed to sit down anyways
today and kind of like make a little bit
of a like a schedule for my eating so I
think I'm gonna try and work on that
starting tomorrow I'll just do low carbs
starting tomorrow tomorrow motto because
I need to be on the same page with Holly
because he does prepare one of my meals
so I just want to make sure that he
knows like what I'm doing because
otherwise he will be completely thrown
off and then I spent a good majority of
today and I feel so good
i sat today and I made my schedule and
it looks so good like look at this
Aretha look look look at this beauty
yeah guys it is filled up that is for
February January there wasn't as much
but I got like for my first page I put
like my shipping orders are not orders
um shipping stuff information and then I
put some bill information January wasn't
as full because like I already kind of
got most of my month done so it's not
got much on it but January February it's
completely filled with our family
schedule of things and how we're gonna
work our daily schedule I am really
excited because I feel like this is just
gonna put us in a a new mode of daily
life time skill not skills but like
family life time during the week because
I just felt like I kind of felt lost in
a way like I feel like I really didn't
know what I was gonna expect to do the
next day and that really bugged me and
then I would like swing
my vinylene time like I'd be like okay
well I have you know two hours that I
can commit to doing vinylene today and
oh I don't know if I'm gonna be able to
do any tomorrow well tomorrow comes in a
mic okay well I can sit down for three
hours and Dube I don't want to do that
like I need a schedule that I know when
I'm gonna do vinylene when I'm not gonna
be doing finally what I'm doing with the
youtubes and when I'm you know it's just
I need schedule and so sitting here
today I sat for probably a good two
hours just really trying to think of all
my commitments think of all these
commitments what the kids is commitments
are what are our priorities what are the
least priorities and things like that so
what makes it on the schedule for our
calendar and what doesn't need to and so
what I did was and I'm so so so so
excited that so here is my this is what
I did is I just made a schedule like
this and then so I have like Fridays
every Friday we all know Ollie goes to
prayer on Friday so that just
automatically goes onto the calendar so
that we all know okay Friday's dad goes
to prayer Fridays I'm also gonna I think
do storytime and that will be our
vlogging for Fridays is gonna be
storytime unless like something happens
on Fridays and we want to vlog then
that's different but I think that me and
Ollie having that story
sit down time with you guys I I see that
you guys really enjoy it I truly enjoy
it because it's just time that me and
Ollie get to sit together and bond along
with sharing stories with you guys it
means a lot and so for me I really
wanted to bring that into our channel so
that way we can have that time together
but then also he gets to be a part of it
because I know he enjoys it too and so I
enjoy seeing him enjoying something and
so together we can do something and so
Fridays are going to be storytime
that will talk about something whether
it be something that is us together
maybe it's gonna be something about him
not so much for me because I have other
days of the week but it's mainly going
to be either me and him or him on
Fridays to do like storytime sharing and
things like that so definitely drop in
the comments below things that you would
love for us as storytime night what are
things that you guys would like for us
to talk about I think it would be fun
too and I know that there has been some
requests in the past but if you guys
want to throw those back down to me
again
I now I'm at a position where I'm gonna
be taking notes and keeping a close
watch on the the things that we get to
talk about all the comments get answered
and things like that so anyways and then
Saturday is my time I'm going back on
the calendar again for me time I think
it's very important I think that it's
very very much needed you know as a
stay-at-home mom slash business owner it
it does take a lot of time and I
definitely need some downtime even if
that is taking a book and going to the
park and reading for a couple of hours
if that means taking a notebook going to
the park and writing for a couple hours
it doesn't mean that just because it's
me time that I need to go to the store
and buy or you know anything like that
it's just time for me and so I really
you know I put that out there for Olly
to know that I think it's very important
that we keep with you know I still have
my me time so Saturday's no matter what
is me time Saturdays is also my vlogging
day so that's when I will vlog whatever
we're doing that day is what will be on
on video along with a closing of course
I always do because I love talking to
you guys and I love sharing things that
have happened throughout the
in more detail when it comes to sit down
and closing and stuff like that so
vlogging will be on Saturday and then
Sunday's is all these days so he goes
and does what he wants to do he gets his
time away from the house and from
responsibilities and just goes and
checks out for him to go and do what he
wants to do and then that night we will
either I or him I or him him or I or
both of us will do a sit-down vlog and
that's probably more so me that will be
the night that I talk about topics of
things that maybe are things that are
not very not very popular talked about
whether it be you know like we've talked
about hygiene we've talked about
birthing we've talked about you know
finding love and so that's another thing
is if you guys have topics you want me
to talk about or do research on to talk
about share with me those things and I
will definitely come up with the topic
conversation but if you guys have like a
headline of something you guys would
like me to talk about on Sundays that
would be a great time to share those
thoughts with me now so I can also mark
those down so we're gonna have sit-down
videos and then we have our story time
videos so story time just make sure you
put on there hey I would love story time
to be about done it out of that and then
if it's about mine then hey I would love
sit down vlog to be did it it to die and
then I'll take those and make their list
Monday's I always have counseling Monday
so that made it onto the calendar
because that is just something every
Monday we know unless my counselor goes
on vacation or is sick or something
which I've never had her call in sick
but I mean if something like oh wait you
know what she did once one time one time
in almost two years one time she missed
me for his being sick um but she I mean
we know Monday's is counseling days so
there's no questions asked nothing like
that also Monday's will be vlogging so
that will be the day that you know I I
take the camera and we go around and you
know you guys get to see what we're up
to for the day and then also
Mondays they're gonna be my shipping
days so for any orders that are being
made always know my orders go out on
Mondays so if you make your order on
Monday then I will obviously won't get
it out until the following Monday if you
make the order on Wednesday then I will
get my order out to you on Monday now if
you get an order on Sunday I am so sorry
but I will not be able to get it to you
go on that Monday that's following
shipped out because clearly it takes you
know a day or two to pull images and
then I have to cut them and then I have
to place them and it is you know it is
steps and so within you know a three day
radius of Monday I will have your order
out for that following Monday but
Monday's will be my shipping day
Monday's will be when I go to the post
office and get my order shipped out to
whomever it is that has orders in so
just know that that is going to be my
new shipping day is going to be Monday's
I was you know making trips to the post
office three and four times a week and
it's just like whoa so this way I can
just gather everything and then take it
all down there and do one trip and that
way that I'm not having to load the kids
up just to take a you know a five minute
drive down to the post office I would
rather do it all at one time so that's
kind of something I did and I think
doing this is just picking up so much
stress and weight off of my shoulders
and making it very much organized and I
like that I love organization I don't
like when things are just not organized
and it's all being you know just swung I
don't like that I don't like not knowing
or having multiple trips of this and
this and this and that that's like so
unnecessary so anyways that's another
change is that shipping days will only
be pulled on Mondays and it has to be
within a three-day radius so anything
after Monday as long as it's three days
but prior so if you put your order in on
Thursday I would be able to ship it out
to you on Monday but if you put your
order in on Friday nine out of ten I may
not get it until the following Monday
but that's just because of how my orders
are running and that's because it takes
steps to do things and I have
to let things something set for a 24
hour before I can ship it out to make
sure that it has settled right because
for me I make sure 100% everything that
I do is that it's a hundred percent so I
hold things to make sure that they've
set right before I ship them out because
if I see that something didn't set right
or if I need to fix it I can do that
before I ship it so Tuesday I will do my
vinyl line and I sketch I set my
schedule two to six that's when I vinyl
I will also do a sit-down vlog that
night Wednesday is kids day out meaning
that's when we're gonna take the baby so
I have that on the schedule every single
Wednesday we will be taking the babies
out to do something and then once
Jeremias out of school for the summer
healed and of course join with us and he
gets to go and do his thing with us um
Thursday's I'm just working and then it
goes back to the same thing but I'm just
so excited to see a schedule it's it's
so refreshing and it's been something
that I've wanted to get done since I
really started balancing my orders and
stuff and so I'm like no I really need
to work hard on it and since I got this
this has just become like it's like my
second skin I mean honestly I love love
love love love my day planner now to go
into our little discussion which I think
it's really funny because my first
discussion page that I pulled up and I
was like okay what are we gonna you know
go over tonight it is save us some of
you for you and as I sat there and I
read that I thought wow like that is so
strange that I pulled this well I didn't
pull it but I mean I turned it to the
first page and that was what I read was
save some of you for you and that means
so much to me because it's so true you
have to save some of yourself for
yourself because if you burn your candle
stick at both ends by
time it comes down to finding yourself
you're just so defeated out and so
exhausted that you can't give for
yourself and I know that as personal
experience that I definitely have found
myself putting myself on the back burner
and putting everybody before me because
that's how I am that's my personality
I love to do for others before I do for
myself and that is always a very great
strategy and it's a very good thing to
have as a Kara sztyc but you also have
to remind yourself that you have to do
for you too so that is why it was really
funny to me because I made sure on my
schedule calendar that I schedule time
just for me because yeah you can say
what your vinylene from 2 to 6 o'clock
that you're having down time but in
reality it's not I'm working I'm having
to you know come up with images
I'm having to search images I'm have
team to pull vinyl and you know lay
vinyl and stressing about making sure
that it lays correctly I mean it's a job
it is a job and so no I don't feel that
I should have to use my job time for me
time me time when I think of me time I
think of that as doing something for
myself
that doesn't take responsibility meaning
you know if I just want to like I said
go to the park and read a book I should
be able to do that roll my windows up
roll them down whatever I want but have
no responsibility for being a mom being
a wife being a friend being in anything
I'm not saying some of those days that I
couldn't you know go and catch a coffee
with a friend or something like that but
for me and I guess you could say this is
where I'm kind of an introvert is that
when I think of me time I don't think of
hanging out with friends
I think of that as I don't have to talk
I don't have to listen to music
sometimes you guys I don't even vlog and
you know that I said that to you guys
before is sometimes I don't even vlog on
my me time because that is me time I
it's almost like I check out from
reality as the person that is my title
and I just check into a space where I am
NOT needed nor wanted for anything and
it's so refreshing so when I come back
into reality of being a wife a mom a
friend a youtuber a vinyl owner and
everything in between
I feel like okay you know what I got
myself some time I feel refreshed I got
to go and enjoy some cool breeze at the
park and read a good book or you know I
mean I sometimes will take my phone and
just watch a couple videos or a movie
and it's just nice to have that time it
really is and it is needed because if
you want to be able to be present for
everything and everybody else you have
got to be first present for yourself and
so I just thought that was absolutely
like an El hitter when I read that I was
just like whoa could that have not
become the first thing that I read as
being what has been on my mind in my
heart today so remember that though you
know don't because I I've Airy much
dealt with the feeling of guilt for many
many many years of asking for down time
or asking for anything from Ali you know
because I felt like I was being selfish
you know how dare I ask to go online I
take a nap and not ask but you know how
dare me even tell him hey I am so tired
today I would love to lay down and go
take a nap or you know I'm really just
I'm really anxious today and I would
love to have a little bit of time down
in my room quiet without any noise and
just lay in my room I used to be so like
I would literally work up anxiety before
I would even make a comment if I even
did it not because he made me feel that
way because he would encourage it you'd
be like honey why don't you go and lay
down in the room and go watch it movie
or you know honey why don't you go to
the store and go do something get out of
the house for a little bit go take a
break and I got no it's okay it's okay
no I don't need to I don't need to but
in the back of my mind I'm thinking yeah
this I really want to but I wouldn't
because I felt like if I did that I not
only was saying that I'm a weak mother
and that I'm a weak wife because I have
to take time away but also I felt like
he would get angry with me because I
asked for some time away and that was so
far from the truth but I'm such a good
storyteller in my own brain that I would
tell myself oh he's pissed off at you
you know he's really he thinks bad of
you because you needed to leave the
house and you know but then when I would
sit back and look at the sidelines he
never had a problem saying hey honey I'm
gonna go and chill with who and who or
you know I'm gonna go and do this or I'm
gonna go lay down take a little nap or
he never takes it out but I'm just using
that as an example he never had a
problem with it but I always would
wonder why do i why do I feel like I
can't even though he says - and he's
permissioned me - because he tells me to
go do it I refused to and so finally
throughout my counseling time I have
learned that I have to have me time and
that it's not me saying I am weak and
it's not me saying that I'm trying to be
selfish or it's about me but it's
healthy for me to get that time away and
so I've really had to work hard on
reminding myself it's okay to take that
time away it's okay to say hey I need
help it's okay to say you know I need
you to step up a little bit and be a
little bit more present because today's
been a rough day with me and the kids or
whatever
might have you it's just the fact that
you know it's learning communication and
telling him where I'm at so that he can
meet me in the middle and relieve me and
make me feel like it's okay to do this
because I still struggle with that I
have not had any actual me time and I'm
gonna say going on three and a half four
weeks like literally me time I haven't
had any I've been struggling with it
again for a little bit and you know I
noticed that as each of those times go
by where I should be taking time for
myself I noticed that I get more anxious
with my kids I get more like my oh my
gosh what is it called my like my not
being able to have enough patience
patience that's sort I'm thinking of
there um my patience runs very short you
know and I love my babies to death but
still I am a mom and I am still a human
and every human needs a break from time
to time and so it's hard though I still
struggle to say and to think it's okay
to leave the house and not feel
obligated to take one of my kids or take
all my kids or you know whatever it
might be because I don't want to be that
selfish mom or the selfish wife that is
requesting time away so yeah it you know
it was nice today though getting that
scheduled sit down and and knowing what
to expect every single night when I go
to bed knowing what the next day is
gonna fold I feel so much better
and I'm gonna put this up on the
refrigerator I have my schedule book
with me and that way we all know what to
expect when to expect it and not to be
you know making plans around that you
know if we have a doctor's appointment
well we'll work around each of our
schedules but it is important to stick
to what we have unless there is an
absolute dire need
then we'll change it but otherwise we're
sticking to this schedule because I want
to and I think it's healthy for us so
Amy who other than that we just had a
really chillax day I did laundry um I
gave the babies behalves early early
this morning I'm gonna actually go and
take a shower right now well in here in
a second I'm gonna go take a shower
and then get ready for bed and that is
it there's not that much going on that
was so crazy but I hope you guys enjoyed
all these story time about hash tag
watch it don't wipe it he killed me with
that video I was rolling and then when I
had to edit it back I just could not
stop laughing and I'm just like alright
sweetie you know the words to say and
just so you all know this is how he is
all the time 24/7 and I don't get many a
real conversation out of him because
usually he's joking somewhere um but
yeah I just hope that you guys enjoy
that remember don't forget to put topics
underneath where you would like a
sit-down video and topics that you guys
want us to talk about for story time and
oh one more thing which I have not
figured out yet how I'm gonna do this
but I'm going to be going live twice a
month now I see that it's something
that's very enjoyable and I know that
you know a lot of you guys like that so
I am going to start going live twice a
month but I will only do one giveaway a
month so one of the lives won't be a
giveaway it's just a get together
chitchat chill sip on coffee together
and get to know each other a little bit
you guys can ask me questions and things
like that but I think it would be fun to
start doing at least twice a month lives
and that way you guys all get a little
bit more time with
to me and some of those lives will be
with Olli too so yeah don't know what we
can expect with that but no joking he
will make sure that we all are on our
toes but anyways all right you guys I am
gonna close here so that way I can go
take a shower and get my baby he's ready
for dinner ready for dinner ready for
bed I
I need bed I need sleep time
but anyways alright take care you guys
I will check in with you guys first
thing in the morning until then sweet
dreams bye
